Emancipation Eve

Emancipation Eve

Tonight I do not walk

How I would like to walk;

I would like to walk with

Your hand in mine,

With my future so solid,

So real that I could

Grab it and place it in my

Winter coat pocket.

I am aging not as a man but

As a dream.

For a man ages with every

Set and rise of the sun,

But dream’s life is not solar or lunar.

A dream ages by choice.

A favorable choice lead to youth.

A bad choice leads to age.

So I sit on the couch and cry.

I age.

I don’t want to age anymore.

I want to live.

I want to let myself live again.

I am the thief of my own life.

I want to let myself be myself.

I want to let myself love you.

I want to let myself grow

I want to let myself love my family

I want to let myself be joyful

I want to live.

I will not let myself cheat myself

Anymore.

I want to live- for the first time- live.